My darling Elaine wants an entry with regards to an update of my life (and not another Japanese drama review or Japanese songs). So, yeah, this is for her. J
It’s been a month since I started on my new job. What have I got to say about it so far? It’s been a roller-coaster. Oh, the trying to get use with the new working environment, trying to be friends and get along with my new co-workers, waking up early to beat the morning jam to arrive to work on time (previous job only required me to come to work at 11am onwards) – that was all a minor hiccup. Got use to it before I knew it.
Then what’s with the rollercoaster you asked? It’s the responsibility being designated; to assist in initiating and assist in running something I have totally no experience in, at all. Not even a fair bit. I find it too overwhelming sometimes, that it’s enough to make me feel terrified that I may end-up being a disappointment. The big guy also wants me to do more on strategic planning, more research and analyzing. But I’m that kinda’ person who goes bantai saja! BANZAI! – the move forward and don’t stop until you hit the wall, and when you do hit the wall, find other means to go through the wall – that’s me. Of course I realize hitting the wall will get me bruises. So, I see the big guys’ point. I get it. You wanna know what’s my issue with this new job? Self doubt. I know it’s the worst kind.
But, hey HOLD IT! HOLD IT! Chotto matte kudasai! I’m still at the job aren’t I? I am not giving-up (yet). Capricorns are sturdy people! Sure they climb the steep rocky mountain slowly, but surely. And before you know it, they are on top of it! What?! No way am I gonna let a tiny problem with insecurity get into my way! Excuse me. They don’t call me cili padi for nothing.
But really, frankly speaking, I don’t really have a choice now do I? I need the salary to survive *grins from ear-to-ear*. How else am I gonna find money to pay my debts: credit card, study loan, home utilities, food, insurance and support my ‘moderate’ lifestyle? And you thought I was accepting the tasks at hand as a challenge? I’m not that commendable! LOL!
But then again, the ACTUAL truth of the matter is I love the job. I sakit kepala because of work sometimes, but I can still smile at the end of the day. Strange as it may seem but it’s true. Perhaps it’s that thing people call “job satisfaction?”J
So Redge, ganbarusa!
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Redgy baby! Thanks! Finally and update on your life!!
yea I never had the chance to ask you on how’s your new job… Its normal to go through what you’re going through right now.. But I know you’re one strong lady and you would be able to go through it! With your charm and your smile, you will be able to work it out babes! I wish you all the best on your new job ya….
Keep updating on your life k!!!!! Muaks~~~~ btw I’m starting job/ internship next monday.. So I’m pretty sure I’d be blogging about my stress level soon enough.. lol.. kinda got used to my kind of life right now..sigh…